Womb clearing.
- Anita Musca
- Nov 14, 2022
- 3 min read
My heart starts racing, i feel myself getting angry, anxious, shaking, why am i feeling this way? What is going on within me to make me feel like this?
Sometimes you have come so far, but it’s not over, there is more to release.
This weekend i had an event to go to i had struggled with the event as i know i am in a different place mentally right now, feeling somewhat solitary and introverted. I found myself contemplating what i would do, should i drink? Should i try be sober? How will i share my energy when i have been so isolated? So a day before the event i went to a womb healing workshop, yep you heard me, womb healing. I had heard from someone i know they had gone to this event and they felt it really was a powerful container for release and they recommended it. So from some kind of universal moment, it popped up on my page the day of the event and i went.
The workshop was passed down from female teachers, Russian, Lithuanian, Slovakian etc. the practise is said to clear the trauma / energy stored in the womb, being women a lot of our trauma is held in our womb space. I had never done something like this, but i was in the “ill try anything” headspace and especially given i felt truly anxious about being around my own friends, and thats just not the space i wanted to be in.
When i arrived there were women who i had not met and a facilitator, everyone seemed to be pretty normal and i felt at ease. We drank some tea and we began, first exercise is a breath-work exercise, breathing deep into the womb space open mouth and exhaling through the mouth for 3minutes, next exercise we bridge and hip thrust with all our energy breathing , making sounds, doing whatever it is that makes us feel release in that moment (three minutes of this might i add, is painful, even for the fit ones). Next we held a bridge pose for 3minutes, legs shaking buttocks aching and lastly we relaxed into a 3minute meditation, there was 3 rounds of all these exercises.
In the hip thrusting leg of this workshop i don’t know how to explain it, but i just poured and poured with tears. I felt a huge waive of emotions, then whilst staying in the bridge pose after this, i just continued to cry and cry. I couldn’t identify the why, but it felt irrelevant, i was just experiencing release. Nothing had recently happened in my life to bring up these emotions, they were deep inner wounds, deep inner pain and i just had to let them go. i found my feminine goddess telling me to “surrender” and i did, i was told by my inner voice “its ok to be successful, its safe to be in the feminine and its ok to do well” , i have a history of quitting before i can succeed to protect myself from failure you see. This inner child, inner wound was giving me permission to reach my potential in this life and i needed to hear it. I don’t know why thrusting the air provokes so much emotion but my god, i felt it. I have a history of sexual abuse and perhaps it has something to do with that, though i don’t think on that often, perhaps it was a room full of women trusting each other enough to hold space for such an unusual thing without judgement. Perhaps i just needed a good cry, we all do, energy stores in our bodies and blocks us, we need to move it through to be able to avoid becoming unwell , mentally and physically. This act of self love, time for me and time to heal was a profound one.
I went to the party for the weekend clear, able to communicate clearly with my friends and to share this unusal experience, and believe it or not everyone wants to sign up, and why not? I dont know the science but i know the feeling of change and release. Making time for you is integral to growth and a must self love / care practise.
With love
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